Thoughts of the day: Being Gone

     It's almost been 8 months since I left the US for an adventure in order to gain some personal growth... Let me tell you, it hasn't been easy. Technically speaking, I've gone back home to the country that I spent 20 years of my life... yet it doesn't feel truly like home anymore. I find it odd sometimes that though I look like and speak like everyone else, I don't feel like I truly fit in anymore. 

      In the years that I've lived in the US, I've grown. I've adapted to the culture, the way of life. I came when I was in my early 20's, when my ideologies and beliefs where at a crucial point of development. Living in the US truly influenced who I am today and the choices that I make each day. There are things I have a hard time comprehending here in the country that I was born and raised, I tried to change and fight my way into making thing go the way I've been used to in the country I've spent my adulthood in... which led to anger, stress, and lots of breakouts! 

      Nowadays, I try to not stress myself out. I realized that I shouldn't try to change things that has been a part of a culture longer than my lifetime, not to say that I should be totally complacent about everything... It's just that I should pick and choose my battles... As a result, my life here right now is less complicated and I'm not stressed out. 

      I only have 2 months left and I can go back to my life. I can blog more regularly. I've not had anytime at all to do so and I miss it so much, blogging about makeup has been a way for me to relax and one the ways that I have fun! 

Thoughts of the day: Leaving

     In 41 days, I'm going to be leaving the US. For a year, I'm leaving the comforts of my home, my friends, my job, my car, and my sweet husband. The thought is scary, it's sad, it's disheartening really. I'm so used to so many things here and I feel like I've taken for granted some of those comforts and conveniences that I have or use in my daily life, granted it's not like I'm going in the wilderness and living with nothing. Of course not. It's just I'm leaving my home. The uncertainty of things and the length of time I'm gonna be spending away from my husband makes me feel sad. 

    I've already started packing, I'm sending my stuff first since it takes a months time before it arrives to it's destination. I'm trying not to pack everything in terms of my beauty and skincare essentials but my train case is full to the brim! As for my personal items, I'm also not trying to pack everything. I'm mostly packing heat and humidity friendly clothes, some shoes, sandals, and even a pair of rain boots since there's only two types of season there (summer and typhoon season!). Any other things I might need, I'll probably just buy there as I need it.

    Well I guess it shouldn't be too bad. Technology nowadays is so amazing! We have FaceTime, iChat, Skype, email, and texting. My dearest husband will come visit me in between the length of time I'm away. Most of all, I'm going to be busy. You see the reason for my long term trip is to fulfill my goal of going back and getting some more higher education. Yes, I'm going back to school. For so many reasons I'm choosing to go to school overseas and not here, it's just more convenient and financially easier for us. So at my age, I'm leaving and going back to being a student. Wish me luck!

Thoughts of the day: Car Troubles

     Today was a good day. I had fun with the kids at work, the actual work part wasn't as tedious as it can sometimes get... then I decided to get a bubble tea before I started my tutoring session with a student. 

     After buying my tea and I was happily drinking it as I got into my car, I put my car key in the ignition and nothing happened. Okay maybe something happened. My car made this weird noise every time I tried turning the engine on. All I could think of was "F*#%! What am I gonna do?!". I'm stuck and I didn't know a single thing about cars except how to drive it.

     So I called Triple A, I called the parent of the kid I was supposed to tutor to cancel and explain. "Crap, my schedule's all messed up now... and I have to pee." I thought to myself. Hahaha... The stupid bubble tea that I drank was taking it's toll  and I couldn't leave my car in case the Triple A guy came to jump start my engine. After an hour, he still wasn't there. Luckily a nice person parked beside me offered to watch out for the Triple A guy while I went to run and find a bathroom (thank god for starbucks!). Don't judge me, it's called desperation. 

     Lesson learned, I need to get to know my car more. When the Triple A guy finally came, it only took less than 10 minutes to make my car start again and I was a happy camper again (granted I was a little irked that he took forever!). I just wanna say, there are still kind souls out there willing to help you out in desperate times. Thank you kind sir, I hope you had a great day! 

    Hopefully my car will start tomorrow morning so I can go to work, else I'm screwed.

Thoughts of the day: Humanity

     I came home from work this afternoon not knowing what was going on in Boston. While I was interacting with little kids and having fun, chaos, fear, and confusion was the feeling that people were experiencing in Boston. It's quite sad that the world has come to this. People hurting other people. For what? Is there really any valid reason to cause such deliberate hurt to a fellow human being?

     I'm not naive to think that bad things don't happen in the world... there are just some things or actions that I can't comprehend or maybe I refuse to. This is the time where I'm glad I'm surrounded by happy, smiling little faces. They remind me of the goodness and innocence left in what has become an inhumane world.

Thoughts of the day: Friends with kids

     Almost all this week we've been seeing friends... Friends with kids. It's wonderful to be able to catch up since for the most part, we haven't had a chance to see them often enough. It's nice to see the changes that's happened especially with the growth of their children, it's so fascinating what a few months or even a whole year can do. It's beautiful to see them be able to walk, talk, or in some cases, run around and chase you while riding a broom! Today, were seeing a couple who've my husband has been friends since high school, we're seeing the after a long time and I'm so excited to see their twins! A boy and a girl. 

     Times like this, it makes me wish that we have kids... It seems like having kids would just complete our lives. Yet there are somethings that we still need to figure out before we cross that really big bridge, till then we'll enjoy the company of our friends and their adorably cute and wonderful kids. So off we go to have some Korean barbecue and some chocolate chip cookie cupcake a la mode for dessert. :)

(Ice cream on top to follow later)

Thoughts of the day: Nostalgia

     It's been raining on and off for a couple of days now... Aside from feeling cold, I feel very nostalgic when it rains. The rain evokes this sense of wanting to go back when I was young, when everything in life was simpler. 

     My husband and I were talking during one of these rainy days, I was telling him about my childhood and how whenever it rained it made me the happiest. Whenever the drops would start to fall... first, gently... It would build up the excitement and fascination inside me. As it starts to pour more stronger, that excitement would bubble over because it meant that I could finally ask my mom if I could go outside and play in the rain. 

     Yes, life was simple and uncomplicated then. Where the mere thought of being able to dance in the rain and splash around the puddles was enough to make me scream with glee... There are days when the rain can still evoke those feelings inside me. Nowadays for the most part, the rain just feels wet, cold, and dreary except for today where it makes me feel nostalgic.

Thoughts of the day: Simplicity

     My life is relatively quiet and simple, I like it that way. No dramas, no baggages. I feel light and can smile easily. Granted I don't have a perfect life, but does anybody?

      Little problems here and there... but when you take things in perspective, things aren't so bad and there are also little reasons to smile and be happy. I'm grateful that I have a roof above my head, means to live comfortably, a healthy family, and a loving husband. I'm also grateful for little angels at work that gives you hugs and I love you's, they make me laugh to no end and they're another reason that I smile a lot.

     Yup, my life is as simple as it can be and granted there are times where I wish I could have more but I wouldn't trade it for anything else.